This is a brand new term in AP Lang and Comp, and I want to start
to look at this class in a whole different way. For some reason, my blogging
and the entire content of this class started to fall behind other subjects. Don’t
ask me why this happened, because I really don’t know. But I am now going to do
something about it.
First of all, I have to make this blog a priority. I got an
F on the blogging grade this term because I simply put this off too much. Even
from the beginning my posts were made all on Sunday night, rushing to get 1200
words all in three separate posts. I remember staying up until 4am sometimes
trying to get my posts in. It was hard to balance because I never made blogging
time during the week, and didn’t use class time well. I also was working a lot, which i will still be doing and now actually i am in the middle of bowling season. This might actually give me something to blog about!
Its not even the fact of writing this blog that bugs me. I guess the fact that when I look at other peoples blogs, they always have something so creative to say. I sometimes feel like everyone is super interested in something but me. Like of course I am interested in sports, and the guyish side of me wants to talk aboout them ALL THE TIME! But, for whoever isnt interested in talking about sports, teh probably get bored with me. Why can't I be totally interested in foreign cultures, or the next world war, or poems people wrote centuries ago?
It seems to me like I am just being selfish... Selfish. Selfish. And more selfish. I only care about things that are happening to me, and things that I am interested in (which isnt much when I actually think about it), but I need to start caring and start listening to things that other people care about, so maybe I can find some things I am interested in myself.
See, once again I just now went into a rant about something completely off topic, when the bottom line is that I NEED to start caring more.. Not just about my grade in this class, but with things that are going on with my friends and family. A lot of people say I am a good listener, basically because I give good advice and I am really good at pretending like I care. Now for this new term of high school, I am not just going to pretend like I care, I am seriously going to care for once.
I really want to be the person that is so motivated that she just comes home and does all of her homework right away. I want to be disciplined enough to get it all done beofre anything else, and to do that I have to CARE.
That is my new term resloution.. Thanks for reading this drawn out explanation.
Its not even the fact of writing this blog that bugs me. I guess the fact that when I look at other peoples blogs, they always have something so creative to say. I sometimes feel like everyone is super interested in something but me. Like of course I am interested in sports, and the guyish side of me wants to talk aboout them ALL THE TIME! But, for whoever isnt interested in talking about sports, teh probably get bored with me. Why can't I be totally interested in foreign cultures, or the next world war, or poems people wrote centuries ago?
It seems to me like I am just being selfish... Selfish. Selfish. And more selfish. I only care about things that are happening to me, and things that I am interested in (which isnt much when I actually think about it), but I need to start caring and start listening to things that other people care about, so maybe I can find some things I am interested in myself.
See, once again I just now went into a rant about something completely off topic, when the bottom line is that I NEED to start caring more.. Not just about my grade in this class, but with things that are going on with my friends and family. A lot of people say I am a good listener, basically because I give good advice and I am really good at pretending like I care. Now for this new term of high school, I am not just going to pretend like I care, I am seriously going to care for once.
I really want to be the person that is so motivated that she just comes home and does all of her homework right away. I want to be disciplined enough to get it all done beofre anything else, and to do that I have to CARE.
That is my new term resloution.. Thanks for reading this drawn out explanation.
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